effortlessly hopeless.

currently listening to:Sister Hazel.

the two song lyrics im posting below are both by Sister Hazel, a country-type of group who aren't really very popular (except maybe amongst us icasas siblings), but they've managed to come up with songs for how i feel and what i want to say down to the very last word.

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Effortlessly by Sister Hazel.

I won't be so hard on me today
I start to take myself so seriously
Shouldn't be so hard just to be effortlessly
It shouldn't be so hard to keep it together
It shouldn't be so hard to say the right things to you
It shouldn't be so hard just to be effortlessly

Weightless worries fall away
Wasted pools of energy
I want to know I want to breathe

Effortlessly - just be
I want to be effortlessly
I want to be

It shouldn't be so hard to be inspired
It shouldn't be so hard just to write this song
It shouldn't be so hard to be wrong or to agree
It shouldn't be so hard to change the world
It shouldn't be so hard just to change your mind
It shouldn't be so hard just to be effortlessly

I won't be so hard on me today
I start to take myself so seriously
Shouldn't be so hard just to be effortlessly

Effortlessly
I want to know
I want to breathe
I want to simplify my needs
I want to live inside this moment
And just be effortlessly
Just be
I want to be effortlessly
I want to be

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Hopeless by Sister Hazel.

A grand empty canvas creating my life
A strange situation - there's no wrong or right
And I'm learning - along the way
From the first time I met you, what could I do
But pray for the strength to see this one through
And I'm trying - it slips away

A hopeless romantic but nothing feels right
A ship full of lovers that sails out of sight
I wait for the answers to fall from the sky

I'm walkin' through trees where the path has been worn
Where hearts have been ripped out trampled and torn
And I'm sorry - I'm sorry once again

A hopeless romantic but nothing feels right
A ship full of lovers that sails out of sight
I wait for the answers to fall from the sky - to fall from the sky
A perfect beginning but why does it end
And when will I learn to let someone in
I wait for the answers to fall from the sky

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if you want to hear these songs, i can (illegally) email them to you if you leave your email address in the comments box, as well as other songs by sister hazel you'd probably like :).

silence.

currently listening to:Masaya / Bamboo.

Tonight, I am saddened by the fact that I can still feel lonely when I'm on the phone with a good friend, or when I'm surrounded by such a large family, or when I'm with such interesting, amazing, cheerful people all day. I have no right to feel sad. I have so much to be grateful for.

So why do I feel this way?

Just now, a really good friend called my cell just to talk...and I realized that I still felt completely and horribly alone--even while I was talking to her. And she was already a good friend.

I suddenly realized that I feel misunderstood... although I myself don't understand why I feel such. I feel like I say things... and people don't hear me.

They don't HEAR me.

I want to be heard. With my REAL thoughts... with what I REALLY want to say. But unfortunately, I don't know what I want to say.

Wow Kris, way to go.

So I write this post with absolutely no thought in mind... in hopes that someone out there hears me, and understands me and my empty message.

wenk.

currently listening to: Black Balloon/Goo Goo Dolls.

what do you do when you've just woken up from a 7 and 1/2 hour nap and can't get back to sleep?

the obvious.

you find a site that makes slogans for you.

swan dive.

currently listening to:Swan Dive/Sister Hazel.

my latest obesession.

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Swan Dive--Sister Hazel.

Would you think I was crazy
If I stripped on down to my skin or
Would you think I was free as a bee
C'mon tell me - tell me -
Tell the truth now
Would you think you could meditate
In the middle of the eye of a hurricane
Would you now but somehow
If we were tethered here together
We could weather out the weather here

And oh yeah I might be crazy -
But that's not the same as insane
And I'm scared -
But that's not the same as being afraid

If I throw myself over the edge
If I find myself in over my head
If I shatter from the fall and I lose
I'd still want to swan dive - into you

So tell me now what you're thinking
A lincoln for your thoughts
Or a dollar for them all yeah
Well I can take the truth -
No I can't - yes I can
Tell me we were meant
To be - a happy accident
Would you cry if I said it
Would you get it if I told you
That I want you and I need you
Aw that wouldn't say enough
Hell, I love you
How about that, yeah

And oh yeah I might be crazy -
But that's not the same as insane
And I'm scared -
But that's not the same as being afraid

If I throw myself over the edge
If I find myself in over my head
If I shatter from the fall and I lose
I'd still want to swan dive into you.

And oh yeah I might be crazy -
But that's not the same as insane
And I'm scared -
But that's not the same as being afraid

If I throw myself over the edge
If I find myself in over my head
If I shatter from the fall and I lose
I'd still want to swan dive into you.

21.

currently listening to:I Will Let You Know/Mike Something:D.

ohmygoodnessicantbelieveireallyturned21. (samgabumati: salamatngmarami.).

ifeelold. everyonearoundmeisgettingold. thatmeanswe'reallgettingold.

that'ssosad. idon'twanttogrowoldyet. i'mnotreadytoactold. ayaw. ayaw. ayaw.

ohwell.

atleast21isanoddnumber.

holidays.

currently listening to:Swan Dive/Sister Hazel.

what do i love most about the holiday season?

family.

the icasas siblings: paul, cyn, vic, carl, me, pj.


the icasases and the davids. 1st row: kris, dad, carl. 2nd row: cyn, vic, mom, pj, paul, tita purita and tito ned.



a blessed 2005 to you all.