year-ender.

currently listening to: happy new year/rent.

whatta year.

it was a year of both accomplishments and of disappointments. it was a year of ups and downs that were a billion and one times higher and lower than last year's.

it's been a fabulous 2005. here's to a fabulous-er 2006!

waaaaah.

help. for peace of mind purposes.


it's this thing that they sell in national bookstore (or used to sell, im not sure. it was out of stock in glorietta). it's this acetate/clear sheet with the letters of the alphabet and numbers on it. you scratch it or rub it on a sheet of paper (usually with a coin), and the letter/number gets transferred onto the other sheet of paper.

can you visualize it? do you know what i'm talking about?



my deluded brain is not satisfied with "letter transfer". i don't know if i'm looking for a specific brand name or a generic name... it's just not a LETTER TRANSFER! (or a rub-on!!!)

what in heaven's name do you call it again!?!?!.

please. text me. call me. comment. save meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

twas the night before christmas...

currently listening to: the way you love me/faith hill.


i'm a little late, (but just in time!), because i FINALLY feel christmas in the air. i've been searching desperately for the 'christmassy' feeling lately, but except for the weather, i've felt nothing.

but i love how christmas is turning out this year. this season, i've met up with both old and new friends, and have managed to spend some time with the different groups of people who are truly important to me. and although, this is not yet my 'year-end blog post', i am really, really thankful, and i'm loving the fact that there is so much to be thankful for.

for my family, and for the christmas traditions that i've looked forward to year after year... and of course, another year of these wonderful icasas traditions to laugh and smile about.

for the annual christmas mass (and songs) that warmed and touched my heart more than they ever did.

for my friends, who made this christmas one full of lots and lots and lots of love and laughter.

... and for another year to look forward to. yay :).

merry christmas, everyone!!! :):):).

bobby bear.

i don't really feel like blogging lately. my mood swings have been getting from bad to worse, and i don't feel like updating you via my blog because i will be posting too many random thoughts, too many times. nothing life-shatteringly horrible--just a lot of little stuff that has started to pollute my mind.

and so, in the meantime, i leave you to speak with...

bobby bear. (thanks jorette, he really, really, really made my day!!!)

be nice to bobby. ta-ta for now.

the world inside my head.

from sister hazel.


....

People so high they think
I can't hear the whispers
I can see it falling off their face
Their trying to shoot down my plane of grace
It seems like its already hard enough

But the paint on me is beginning to dry
And it's not what I wanted to be
The weight on me
Is hanging on to a weary angel

So tell me what it is about me
Where did everybody go without me
So, I like to fantasize
And watch the sunrise like it's a big surprise

Life moved and I stopped to taste it
I drank it up 'til it left me wasted
But my rains have bled
A softer red
Oh you should see the world inside my head

:(

currently listening to: knocking on heaven's door/avril lavigne.


did you hear my shrieks and cries all the way from my house in alabang? yep, it was that loud.

did my flood of tears reach your house? (haha, exag... it was just a little puddle.)

did you watch amazing race? did you? did you? huh? huh? huh?

well, if you did, then you'd know why i'm utterly depressed right now. it was so friggin' close. i really SHOULD stop watching amazing race. the teams i fall in love with always lose. i don't know how much more heartbreak i can take. waaaaaah.

overdue.

currently listening to: if i ever feel better/phoenix.



you know you have a lot of time on your hands when you actually get to sit down for hours and do something about the mess in your life.

today for example. i concentrated on my yahoo mail and did something about the errr.. overdue cleaning it needed :)

before.

after.

yep, my life is in tip-top shape!!! well... my inbox is, at least :)

contentment.

currently listening to: sometimes you can't make it on your own/u2.

the term has finally come to a close.

the weather's getting colder, hot choco has never tasted better, the stars have never been brighter, Christmas is just around the corner, old friendships are getting stronger, and everything's practically perfect the way it is.

after the storm.

currently listening to:biglaan (acoustic)/six cycle mind.

although rare, there are times in life where everything falls into place, and is just... perfect.

i guess this stage in my life is the 'calm after the storm'.

most of the huge problems that have been bothering me lately have been addressed. the best part about it all is that not only did these problems disappear, but the way that they were resolved surpassed my expectations. by far.

afer a storm, it's proper procedure to 'assess the damage' caused.

i look back, and i see that the past few weeks, i have been a total mess. i was in one of the most emotional states i've ever been in, and really wanted to errr.. "hurt" some people (to put it nicely!). i was tired from the lack of sleep, i was cranky due to certain 'forces', i was worried about a lot of things going on, and i was stressed.. and everyone knew it. (and i gained a lot of weight too, because i eat a lot when i'm stressed.. and when i'm not stressed!)

but in the end, it was worth it, and i am thankful. :)