perspective.

currently listening to: Sweetness In Starlight/Matt Wertz.

im back!

as you, my dear readers, can probably tell, i've been an emotional mess lately. i've been drowning in piles of work and emotional luggage. sure, im back, and things are even more hectic as before, but the 6-day vacation was exactly what i needed to momentarily forget about it all and see things in a different perspective.

toilets. manners. bunny. the word "optional". chinese food. the words "hello missy". spit. late bunny. corruption. the great wall of china. yellow, blue, and purple food boxes. erlines, erports and erplanes.

it was definitely the experience of a lifetime. something my family will probably talk and laugh about for years. i would need days and days and days to recap to you the unbelievably interesting events of the 6 days that we were in china. hundreds of pictures have yet to be uploaded, amusing stories and experiences have yet to be told... but i don't need to just yet--i'm in no rush. whether anyone else knows what happened in china or not, i had my family with me all throughout each and everyone of these experiences... and the very fact that these experiences were spent with my family--that's all that matters.

that's all that matters.

so, my dear readers, i'm back. my face is dry and peeling, and i'm much, much fatter (8 viands a meal can do that to you, you know!)--but i'm refreshed and i feel that i'm ready to face the world. really. so, bring it on. =)

TA TA!!!

currently listening to:Another Me/Sister Hazel.

a week off to rest, shop and spend time with my entire family.

surreal.

I'M GOING TO CHINA!!!

see you all on tuesday!!! =)

home.

currently listening to:Shiver/Coldplay.

i feel so unbelievably homesick for a place that i have yet to encounter.


i wish i were home.


the funny thing is--right now--i am home. literally, i mean. here i am in my pajamas, typing away on blogger while my 9 thousand other open internet explorer windows eagerly seek attention. here i am worrying about 7 zillion things that have to be done tonight as my mom wakes up to yell at me to get at least a few hours of sleep. 5:30am of monday morning, and there are still no signs of anything that resembled a weekend.


i wish i were home.


you know. home. a place with no worries. where nothing else matters. where you live in the moment. where you can be totally yourself. where you can do what you want when you want. where everything is familiar. where you are in control of the events of your day and you pretty much know exactly what to expect. where all that surrounds you are the people who you love most. when laughter and love are two of the most important things that exist. when you are happy. when you are content.


i wish i were home.

bits.

currently listening to: Sweetness In The Starlight/Matt Wertz.

i've been embarassed to read back and once again see my latest extreme mood swings.

it's just a phase. it's just a phase. it's just a phase.

or let's hope so, at least.

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you know that feeling where you want to blog but have nothing concrete to say? well, over the past few days, i've come up with way too many things to blog about, which right now, fails to come to mind.

humor me.

currently listening to: Collide / Howie Day.

im so sick of this. seriously. how many more days like this one could possibly exist? how many horrible, negative thoughts could possibly be swirling around this already drained-out brain of mine? how many more migraines could i possibly get when my brain is already no longer functioning?

i think i've just about extinguished God's alotted number of "bad days a person has in a lifetime." my life is turning into a very,very,very sick joke.