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i'm sad but i'm happy, but i'm sad but i'm happy.

i've been a bit stressed at work (which is okay, because i actually like stress), and at least the working environment is a busy but fun one. i'm just sad that i'm one of those people who wake up, go to work, go home, and sleep. weekends have become invaluable, because it means i can do much more than just spend a few minutes on the phone before falling asleep on whoever i'm talking to ( i'm so sorry, jv! hehe:) ).

i feel so... old! i mean... i love sleeping late! being puyat is normal! i'm nocturnal, for crying out loud!!! it has never come to a point that i had to choose between going out with friends and getting rest! ever! i was never a social loser! not until this point of my life! suddenly, i neeeeeeeeed sleep! i want it! i crave for it! what's wrong with me!?!?!?

i'm sad because i love what i do, but i'm completely clueluess about it at the same time (only those updated with my life will understand why exactly that is). i want to be good at what i do--extremely good--but there's so much to learn, and there's so much room for error. i'm scared.

but i'm happy :).

new beginnings repeating all over again..

currently listening to:when it was over/sara groves.

a fresh start: that's what everyone gets when a new year arrives.

we are given the opportunity to start over.. psychologically, at least. we make resolutions that we intend to keep, we make dreams and goals we wish to accomplish within a 12-month period. we clean out our rooms and desks, and try to rid ourselves of any trash and excess baggage we may have lying around.

the funny thing is that we can do all these things--make resolutions, make new goals, clean our rooms--absolutely any day of any month we wish. it's just that having a brand new calendar to write in gives you the opportunity to forget about all the mess you made the year before, and start off with a fresh page... with all that beautiful white space, you just HAVE to get out your best pen and write in your best penmanship, if you know what i mean. when the new year arrives, we like to think we start with a clean slate.

i WILL make personal resolutions for the year 2007, but i will do them *secretly* (mainly because i haven't yet had enough time to sit down and think about what i want to achieve this year. so one resolution, at the very least, is to come up with time to do that!). i am VERY proud to share with you, however, that i have kept a LOT of my resolutions for the year 2006. no, i did not keep all, but i kept enough to surprise even myself :).

but if the first few hours of the year are any indication as to how the rest of the year is going to be, then it's definitely going to be a GREAT year. as early as the second day of 2007, a great amount of great things are in store for me and my loved ones. it will definitely be a kickass, fantabulous 2007.

here's to love and laughter for everyone! cheers! :)