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i'm sad but i'm happy, but i'm sad but i'm happy.

i've been a bit stressed at work (which is okay, because i actually like stress), and at least the working environment is a busy but fun one. i'm just sad that i'm one of those people who wake up, go to work, go home, and sleep. weekends have become invaluable, because it means i can do much more than just spend a few minutes on the phone before falling asleep on whoever i'm talking to ( i'm so sorry, jv! hehe:) ).

i feel so... old! i mean... i love sleeping late! being puyat is normal! i'm nocturnal, for crying out loud!!! it has never come to a point that i had to choose between going out with friends and getting rest! ever! i was never a social loser! not until this point of my life! suddenly, i neeeeeeeeed sleep! i want it! i crave for it! what's wrong with me!?!?!?

i'm sad because i love what i do, but i'm completely clueluess about it at the same time (only those updated with my life will understand why exactly that is). i want to be good at what i do--extremely good--but there's so much to learn, and there's so much room for error. i'm scared.

but i'm happy :).