a P2.00 lesson.

currently listening to:here tonight/hale.

life is, strangely, very, very much like a plastic balloon.

you know how when there's no more 'raw' plastic balloon to blow on the stick and the balloon won't get any bigger?

well, you're actually being given a choice. wherein the outcome of the entire balloon depends 100% on your decision.

you have the choice whether to close the balloon completely--seal it with your lips (haha!) and set it free.

or you can blow an 'artificial' hole (with that cool popping sound!), and attempt to make the balloon bigger.

do you choose to be content with what you have now? or do you take the risk, and hope your decision doesn't blow up in your face?


*a question brought to you by jack & jill party needs.

unhinged.

sometimes, i believe that i really am emotionally unstable.

in one unbelievably long day, the number of times i've wanted to scream, pull the hair from my head, kill myself (or those around me!), laugh at the irony of all that has happened to me, or sit in a corner and bawl my eyes out has shifted so quickly, so randomly, that even i started to scare myself.

i don't know what's wrong with me. seriously. my emotions have unhinged themselves from my brain, and they're let loose. the rational side of me is diminishing little by little, and i fear the worst for myself and for those around me when i give in to my emotions completely.

public announcement.

im losing my miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiind!!!

can someone please find it for me?!? PLEASE?!?! pretty please?!?

i need it before the thesis deadline THIS tuesday.

oh... and while you're looking... could you please look for my sanity as well? i don't remember when i saw it last. but i think it was wearing jeans.

and maybe you can buy me a LiiiiiTTLE more patience. correction. a LoOoOoOoOoT more patience. if i don't get ahold of some GIANT container van of patience extremely soon, then i predict that by the end of the week, i've stabbed someone with a bloody RED ballpen and stuck it through that person's throat. on second thought, don't find me patience. bwahahahahahahah.

brainfart.

currently listening to:see you soon/coldplay.


talong: hey what's that old school dance na the girl puts her hand sa shoulder ng guy, tapos they both hold hands na parang 90 degrees, tapos yung guy nasa wait ng girl yung hand?

talong: well, hindi naman 90 deg.

wenkgirl: sadie hawkins?

talong: HAHAHA what are you talking about?!?

wenkgirl: i dont know.

picture, picture!

currently listening to: be strong now/james iha.



more than a week has gone by since my "adventure" with bins, hof, dan, den, irene, some of pipo, and some of pogz. they (bins, actually) will never forgive me if i keep posting about amazing race and never posted about our... *ahem* "outing"... so fine. here we go :).


well. we all crammed into hof's crv.





we stayed overnight in some room for rent in tagaytay, where of course we drank... starbucks ;).





we went to batangas the next day & night, where we met 2 of the ugliest mermaids the sea (or road) has ever encountered. really.


meet marina...


and marina.

(believe me when i said ugly yet?)


of course, THEY went swimming (ang mga kasama ko, hindi ang mga marina).

i was just focused on keeping my head above the water... and i succeeded!




most of the time.



(fine bins, ikaw yan. wala ako. oo na. huhuhu.)


of course, hof, bins and i SWEAR on our lives...




... that we were also there when this picture was taken :(


on the way back, we spent more time in the car...






and of course, we ended it like any REAL outing should end. perfectly.

with elmo by our side.

psychic.

currently listening to: learning to breathe/switchfoot.




i have predicted the cause of my death.



answering the question

"bakit?"

too many times.



i don't know when or where...

but hopefully,

it strikes

when i need to get out of answering it the most.


when i don't know the answer.

life.

currently listening to:foolish games/jewel.


i'm beginning to believe that "doing the right thing" is impossible to do. there's no such thing. in situations like this... no one wins.

in most situations, it's always a matter of either putting yourself before others, or putting others before yourself. so which is supposed to go first?
how do you know what to do? how do you know who goes first?

how are you supposed to go on with your life, knowing that you put yourself first? knowing that you took the selfish route? how are you supposed to be happy knowing that someone else was affected greatly by your decision?

you can't. i can't.

on the other hand, how are you supposed to survive life knowing that what you did isn't what you wanted? are you supposed to be plastering fake smiles on your face for the rest of your life? are you supposed to live on the happiness that the other person feels, knowing that the happiness is not your own?

you can't. i can't.

we are a selfish, selfish, selfish species.

welcome, ladies and gentlemen... to life.

one thing i hate most is when people offer something to you...
and then take it away.

material, immaterial--it doesn't matter. it was offered--it was dangled in front of their face... and then you take it away and give it to someone else. roar.

you break someone's heart when you do that. somehow, i don't think you get that.

WHEN I BECOME RICH, I SWEAR THAT ON MY LIFE THAT I WILL NEVER BECOME LIKE YOU. EVER.

:(

last saturday to monday, i went out of town with my friends, and it was one of my favorite-st vacations with my friends yet. really. i've got pictures ready to be uploaded, and stories to tell... but i won't blog about it, because something devastating has happened.

the gaghans have been eliminated from the amazing race.

why go on living? huhuhuhuhu. =(