blind.

currently listening to: break me/jewel.



i have a fear of going blind.

it's not your imaginable way of going blind--something explodes, and you can't see. or you wake up, and your vision is gone. or you get sick, and it affects your eyesight. and no, it's not me donating my eyes to a family member or a good friend either.

but i fear going blind via a CD. yep. you got it. a compact disc. a dvd, vcd, blank cd, audio cd... it doesn't matter. it WILL be the reason i will go blind.

i always imagine the same 2 scenarios, and they are scenarios i've played in my head over and over and over again.

1) a flying CD (think frisbee) heading straight towards my corneas. eyes close in pain. eyes open, i see nothing.

if that's too boring for you, there's this method:

2) someone forces to bend and break a CD in half, and as a result, the CD breaks into a hundred tiny slivers and the pieces fly into my eyes. ouch. the pain. the agony.

goodbye, 20/20 vision. it was nice knowing you.

geek in the pink.

currently listening to: mr.curiousity/jason mraz.


i have never considered myself a reeaaaaal fanatic, but i've always liked certain jason mraz songs. the surprising thing though, is that i never thought that i would like him this much after seeing his concert. i *heart* this particular geek in pink now. he's got 1000 things to like about him! he is the remedy to a long, long day. you and i both know that there was no clockwatching in his concert! because of his wordplay, life is wonderful! haha. i'll stop now. i'll just be sleeping to dream about the concert again. =P

jron and mark! thanks for the ticket, the seating adventure, and for remembering to bring a camera! :)

contentment.

currently listening to: they're on to me/ari hest.


things have been better lately. my moods have been steadily climibing from rock bottom all the way up to content. of course, i've reached my "crying quota" for the month, and i've had my share of "monthly mood swings" lately, and but i think the fact that i'm female and that i'm my mother's daughter excuses me.

it's only the third week of the year, and already, i feel like i've done new things and have learned so much. i've actually reflected on what i want to do after graduation, and am really hoping that these plans push through. i went to the eurostar carnival with green & white friends, and spent a whole afternoon screaming (and almost hurling), being tossed up and down and left and right on rides--and it was so, so, so fun! i went to tagaytay with old friends from high school, had real, overdue heart-to-heart talks, and realized that hey... my life isn't bad at all--and that i should be nothing but thankful. i have no right to complain.

and of course, the recent friday overnight for the yearbook (which i've been accustomed to for the past year) once again reminded me that when life throws all sorts of crap at you---it only takes a couple of hilariously useless conversations with equally hilarious people to forget about it all. huahuahuahua.

brainfart.

currently listening to:baby, i love your way/mig ayesa.


due to server problems, i've been internet-less for the past 4 days and i'm just about ready to pull out all the hair on my head and scream for dear life. my friend said nga eh, sa sobrang tagal kong hindi nag-y-ym, baka magkasakit ako. you should see my facial reaction whenever i see a vacant computer with internet! (and yyyyymmmmmmmmm)!!! *drool*

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i've had exactly THREE glasses of coke since the new year started. yes, ladies and gentlemen, i'm actually still very much following my new year's resolution. i'm starting to feel the effects of being cokeless for days, though. i'm not as hyper as i used to be, and i'm starting to be a liiiittle more stable---but on a lower energy level. get it? let's just say, my body is reacting violently!

must have coke. must have coke.

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warning: (spoilers (but more of my ranting) ahead!)

blue moon.
has anyone seen blue moon? one of the entries of the metro manila film fest? if yes, please tell me---why am i so bothered by the fact that eddie garcia died without knowing that christopher de leon had the other half of the picture that corazon left him? don't you feel sorry for the fact that eddie garcia died thinking that he lost it, when all this time, it was with his son? it bugs me soooo much and i don't know why!!! roooooar! poor manueeeeeeeeeeel! :`(

the family stone.
i liked the movie actually. in fact, i cried (and TRIED to be secretive about the fact that i did, but it didn't work, apparently =P).

anyway, i'm disappointed with how the two couples in the end ended up together. i found it to be immoral and unethical. i mean, the fact that dermot mulroney fell in love with the sister of his girlfriend in a span of one day! and when they were out "searching" for the girlfriend, he was too busy flirting and falling in love with her sister! the nerve! grrr! it just... grrrrr! i didn't mind the sarah jessica and luke wilson pair-up though, but it just bothers me so much that claire danes didn't even talk to sarah jessica and ask for her consent or anything when it came to falling in love with her boyfriend! and dermot mulroney! so unethical to fall in love with claire danes, ha! :(.

but don't get me wrong. both movies were nice. i just didn't like some parts. but really. they're really nice!!! =P.

reso.

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Getting myself admitted to a mental institution. Get your resolution here

year-starter.

currently listening to: gising na / parokya ni edgar.


For the first time ever, I will announce to the world my new year's resolutions. Why? Because I figure that it will push me to actually attempt to keep them, since I know that YOU know what they are ;). Get it? No? Too bad!

*drumroll*

Here are Wenk's Resolutions for 2006.

I WILL...

...lessen my Coke intake. Yes, world! You heard me right!!! I WILL start to drink Coke Light when available. I WILL TRY to drink water. Sob! I'm depressed already. Seriously. What am I going to do without all that sugar!?

...learn to drive a manual car this summer. Really. And I PROMISE my best not to let go of the wheel when I see approaching cars this time. Haha.

...start reading (and BUYING) more books. Not only that... I'll finish them, too!

...save money. Lots and lots and lots of money! Really. Heck, I'll even start to recognize coins as "real money"! =P.

...exercise more. Gym? Nah. But I promise to exercise more than just my typing fingers this year.

...lose weight for my sister's wedding in April. Really. Diet? Errr... no. But I WILL stop eating unnecessary snacks at 2am, at least =).

...stop my gluttony. Eat what and when you should eat, then that's eat!!! =P.

...graduate this term. I WILL pass my 3 remaining subjects... not with flying colors though.. I'll just pass them. I'll TRY to go to them, too! =).

...get a job this year. Not right after graduation though, but I am DETERMINED to do this year's Christmas shopping using my own savings from my *wheeeee!* salary.

...get my relationship with Him back on track. Come on Kris, you did it before. You came and went and look! He's still there.

...spend lots of quality time with the dog. (oh, and my family and friends too!)

...watch my mood swings. They're getting too scary---even for me. I WILL try to be more... errr.. emotionally stable.

...learn how to cook. I WILL learn kitchen skills other than opening and closing the refrigerator door.

...stop saying, "I'm tamad", even if I am! Hwek hwek hwek! =P.

...lessen playing Neopets. What's the point? I've been playing for years and I'm still not rich!

...stop cursing. Damn. This is going to be *^%#@&* hard!

...be more adventurous. If i find means to go bungee jumping, then by golly, i'm going bungee jumping! Wheeeeeeee!

...try to try to try to keep my resolutions. promise.


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yes, i know: i'm aiming REALLY high this year! i don't know what on earth possessed me to make so many resolutions, since we all know that the best resolution to make is not to make any resolutions at all. but anyway. wish me luck. =P.

happy 2006!!! =).